And, I added 2 colour picture from the London show on July 5th, 1 of Alex and 1 of Alex and Daryl. The other picture is from the acoustic set Alex and Mark played at the CD release party on June 28th.

-Mark LaJoie

Blind Ambition, it has been over 5 years now and it just feel like im beating a dead horse...im the only original member and it just has gotten to frusterating to teach people the different songs on the different instruments. I think we made our mark and did all we can do...I dont think we could really do anymore than we already have. Alex is moving to Ottawa, and Daryl is going back to Hamilton and I dont think there are members that can match up to them in the way they fit in and understood the style of music I was writing and wanted to play. I guess I just dont have the passion anymore, and without that, there is no point cause your just wasting your time...

OK, the show is in Madoc on the 30th, go to the shows section for the detail.

This kinda sums up how i'm feeling.

Dear Friends,

Thank you all for your posts on the board. I am happy that there are so many wonderful people who like Eye Adrift.

The board is a free for all. Remember what Col. Kurtz said about judgment? There is much judging, many stones cast from the safety of anonymity.

Are some posts anonymous? Yes and no. Being on the inside gives me a perspective gained from real information. The anonymous put forth speculation gleaned from who knows where? Perched behind the veil of the internet, they enjoy the freedom to construct theories about real people whom they know little about. These real people, Curt, Bud and myself (Krist) have put our faces on the main page of this site. Those are our eyes gazing at you on top of this page. You know our names. We created music and chose to share it with you all. We don’t need anonymity because we know who we are.

Watching what people do with the freedom of anonymity and how they abuse it, it's plain to see that they ultimatly reveal themselves. Isn't freedom wonderful!!!! I’m glad that people have a forum to express themselves, free of the sieve of a moderator.

So what’s up with Eyes Adrift? Pretty much nothing.

We came together in 2002 as three musicians who like to play. We came together as three people who shared common life experiences.

While Eyes Adrift is an artistic success, the commercial side is anything but successful.

Our First tour in the spring of 2002 was great. We played great shows, met great people and had great fun. We drew people just on our past histories. We had no product (except for silly T-shirts.)

After the release of the album the dynamic changed. Being on an independent label created many challenges for us. We were working outside of a very insular system. While our collective pasts did give us an advantage, it wasn’t enough to overcome the fact that there was very little money for promotion. We chose to put our money into creature comforts like a first class tour bus.

Turnout to our shows would range wildly, one night packed, the next sparse. Still , every night, we met with all of the people who wanted to say hi. I must have literally met a thousand people – you know who you are.

The turnout issue transformed into a financial one. Our tour was in the red. All indications were that Europe would be the same. It was that reality which ultimately kept us from going over there. I am still deeply disappointed, especially when I think of all of the wonderful people I met on the two US tours. I am disappointed that I will not make new friends in Europe—at least not soon.

I recall too many stories of people simply not being able to find the CD in stores. I know of many who just downloaded. Mixed reviews didn’t help the fact that we really didn’t sell many CD’s. I can’t honestly tell you how many we’ve sold but I can’t imagine it’s over 20,000 units.

A flop? No way!!! At this rate we’ll go gold in about a hundred years. Too long you say but isn’t music eternal? I’m in no rush.

The overwhelming majority of people don’t even know that there is an Eyes Adrift. People walk up to me and ask me about Sweet 69 or Sweet 76 or whatever tortured recollection of that musical triumph they can muster. I’ve found that people do get turned on to Eyes Adrift and that’s fulfilling.

Another fact that works against us is that we all live so far apart from each other. We are all connected to our respective homes and leaving is difficult.

I got to play with Curt and Bud. We made an awesome record. Bud is a great drummer and Curt a master songwriter and guitarist. In my life I’ve been extremely fortunate to have worked with some great talent. Yes friends I am very content. I am very honored. I’ve been to the mountain and let me tell you, the view is glorious. I want to thank all of the great players who shared their talent with me and I will forever hold these experiences near and dear to my heart.

What next? As far as the music industry goes, I quit. I can’t deal. I can’t read the magazines, listen to the radio or watch music television without feeling like I’ve just come in from outer space. I just don’t get it and I probably never did. My lot in life is that every band I’ve ever been in just falls apart. That hurts but I’ve got a thick hide from years of conditioning. Now please take note that I haven’t quit music, I’ve just quit the business. (I can’t complain about the business side of Nirvana. I’m not crying a river by any means.) I want to play more with Curt and Bud, they’re too good for me not to plug in my bass thus plugging into the cosmo-stream of transcendental rocking good times that those two charge me with.

I’m relatively young (38) and I want to follow my compulsions. I have big plans for 2004. Next year will be a pivotal year politically for every one of us in the USA and for myself, even more so. I’ve come off of nine years of political success and see some real opportunities to make change. You’ll all hear about my plans soon enough. If you’ve been following my politics, you know that I will continue to work for inclusion, fairness and freedom.

Friends, thank you all again. Please continue to speak freely on the Eyes Adrift board. Rant, rage and reveal. Pour out your heart or piss all over – freedom gives you the option!!! Freedom is a huge responsibility so please remember to respect it.

Krist Novoselic

July 27, 2003

Or maybe this is how i'm feeling

To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things. For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

"...stupid georgia shows and their getting cancelled.
...stupid work and me going to it.
...stupid banana muffins already in my stomach so that i don't get to eat them anymore.
...stupid new stephen malkmus album still not in yet.
...stupid Ozzy pepsi twist commercial.
...bah."

So remember, what can go wrong, will go wrong..and if it can get any worse, it will.

P.S. We played a show on Easter Sunday